As a preface, I have always had a problem with stupidity. Now don't misunderstand, stupidity for me is an extreme lack of common sense and I am probably one of the more stupid people in this world. Unfortunately it is one of the traits I see in others that just sets me off. More maddening is watching friends screw up and doing nothing. Everyone has free agency and can therefore choose their own path in life. This also means that I cannot stop anyone from making stupid decisions. But after watching these friends slip and fall, I, in my own form of stupidity, stick around to provide comfort and help pick up the pieces. Very seldom in life do I leave a friend to fed for themselves. This only happens when a friend no longer holds the title of one.
Currently, I am having a hard time... how should I say it? Letting go? Someone once very close to me has rightfully earned a place among the top three stupidest people I know. Normally I would have expelled this person from my life a long time ago. So why not weed out such a hindrance? Well it's this stupid and irrational thing called love. I love all of my friends, but to what degree varies. And this idiot of a friend is, still, very dear to me. A quote I once heard illustrates my point nicely: "I didn't fall in love; the loser tripped me." As many times as I have been discarded, ignored, hurt, and snubbed, I can't bring myself to let go. He has had no problem letting go of our friendship, which makes it hurt even more. Where does stupidity come into play? Well the biggest and worst decision my friend has made is a recent occurrence. My 'friend' has decided to get married. I won't go into detail but would like to stress the point that I am not jealous - I do not want to be the one getting married to this guy, but I do not like his fiancee (gag!) and I feel they are not meant to be together and this decision will make him unhappy. So why, after everything I've been put through by this friend, do I care about his happiness??
Now we have arrived at my problem - whose stupidity bothers me most? His or mine?
Currently, I am having a hard time... how should I say it? Letting go? Someone once very close to me has rightfully earned a place among the top three stupidest people I know. Normally I would have expelled this person from my life a long time ago. So why not weed out such a hindrance? Well it's this stupid and irrational thing called love. I love all of my friends, but to what degree varies. And this idiot of a friend is, still, very dear to me. A quote I once heard illustrates my point nicely: "I didn't fall in love; the loser tripped me." As many times as I have been discarded, ignored, hurt, and snubbed, I can't bring myself to let go. He has had no problem letting go of our friendship, which makes it hurt even more. Where does stupidity come into play? Well the biggest and worst decision my friend has made is a recent occurrence. My 'friend' has decided to get married. I won't go into detail but would like to stress the point that I am not jealous - I do not want to be the one getting married to this guy, but I do not like his fiancee (gag!) and I feel they are not meant to be together and this decision will make him unhappy. So why, after everything I've been put through by this friend, do I care about his happiness??
Now we have arrived at my problem - whose stupidity bothers me most? His or mine?
1 comment:
:( hyum, it's the worse when you feel like a friend is picking a bad future and there's not much you can do about it. Oddly enough I've found in the past few days that forgiveness is the best remedy for stupidity, and it's a very hard thing to do. :) I hope it turns out for the best.
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