Feelings change. It's a fact of life. They may get stronger, weaker, or end up swinging in the completely opposite direction, whatever the case my be. It is hard to realize that feelings have changed, though, when the mind and heart still retain memories from when you feelings once were. Say you love someone but due to distance, times, and circumstance, you no longer feel that way. You don't hate this person, you just don't feel the love you did when you were with them. Perhaps the circumstance has made it so you have to place distance between yourself and this person. Because of this it is even harder to understand the feelings you have. Why now do you feel a little bit empty? Why now do you feel fear where there was once excitement? Why can you not wrap your head around the fact that as much as you do not like it, this relationship may be healthier than the one you had before? Why can you not understand that things are better this way, or at least that the end result will be? Why does it still hurt some days and other days feel like liberation at last? Feelings, once so easy to decipher and unwaivering, are not so much anymore. It's something tricky to understand and even more difficult to interpret and accept. I guess every journey of a thousand miles starts with just one step. Here is my one (first) step.
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