You Can't Hide From Shadows

How do you hide from yourself? How do you seperate yourself from, well, yourself? Some things in life are so deeply ingrained within us that it is near impossible to get rid of them. Over time, however, it may come to our attention that these parts that have intertwined within us are actually something that ends up hurting us. No matter which happens, be it the shards within us left to fester or attempting to remove them, we feel pain, and sometimes that pain is beyond anything we have ever felt. The question then, is this: do we turn a blind eye to the cankerous infection within us, pretending it is not there as we believed it to be once before or do we suffer through the pain in order to finally be free and whole once more? If we pretend there isn't something poisonous within then we will eventually rot from the inside out, not being able to do anything until it is too late. If we suffer through the removal of such intrusions, we will not be whole for a long time. There may even be scars left as a reminder of what it was we had to go thorugh. Either way, we are at fault for letting such a thing occur and there will never be a time that we do not know of what is happening inside of us. If the weeds that have mingled in with our garden are left and ignored, our garden, being our self, is ruined. If we attempt to remove the overgrowth, we are left without weeds, but without a garden as well. There is also no guarantee that we will be able to rebuild a garden as we had before. Perhaps I am rambling too much but perhaps there is the one person out there that know what I am talking about. Maybe this will reach the one person that needs to hear it the most. I don't have an answer and I don't have a cure. I am one of the many that is stuck trying to decide what the lesser of two evils is. I am suffering as much as anyone out there. I don't claim to know how to fix ANYTHING, but I do recognize at least, what it is that is happening. From here is where the waters get murky. I'm just glad I have a helping hand to (hopefully) conquer that which awaits me. I only pray that the path I choose to now follow doesn't scare off the only help I have on this journey.