In life, it is not possible to have everything you want. There is no such thing as perfection and the good must be taken with the bad. However, when there is a lot of bad, it is easy to say that life's not fair and that the world just hates me. I'm learning, though, that I can't say this; I can't complain, all I can do is work to make it better, or at least to make it better for me. Someone I know once said "The world doesn't hate me - sometimes it just misbehaves." I agree with this. There are times in life, as I always seem to point out, that are hard and painful. But I honestly am realizing that these are the times that you need to grab by the horns, so to speak, and turn them around! Everything happens for a reason. I am still not 100% sold on this idea but I learn to have faith in it every single day.
On another note, events in my life, ones that while in the throws of pure emotion, good and bad, have taught me how to listen to myself. To my dismay, confusion has been my constant companion for longer than I have wanted. I could not decide. Or if I had I would question my judgment. But for the first time I felt something - I felt something so strong and clear I embraced it without question. Of course, the confusion had me in it's clutches, but it came after the fact. I could not deny the feeling I had and could not forget it. I do not want to ever forget the clarity I felt. When I think about that moment, I know how to hear myself, to listen to the small whisperings guiding me through life. This event in my life has and will serve as a lesson on how to escape the confusion. As cliche as it may sound, this is my silver lining, this is a true blessing despite it all.
As everyone knows, my life is a roller coaster, which I have always seen myself as involuntarily riding. This ride isn't involuntary anymore. I am not saying that life is perfect and everything is hunky-dorey, because we all know those things are not actually possible. I will not even say that life is good at the moment because I still hurt. I still feel. I still struggle, even with this. So instead of being forced in the roller coaster by metal bars and safety belts, I hold myself in, clinging for life, because things will get better. It is all up to me. All I have to do is listen. When I do this my life is directed as such that will, eventually, lead me to the place that will bring me the most possible happiness. (Yeah, yeah I'm sounding sappy now. Sorry.) All I can do is try and wait - two things that I absolutely hate doing and, in this, I know I am not alone. But the world has misbehaved enough times to make it clear to me that this is something I need to do. Unfortunately, it comes through a time like this. Complain as I might, I cannot and will not turn back. The past is the past for a reason and knowing the things I do now, I will not look back. I will not dwell, contemplate, or long for things I have lost or left behind. "Forget about the things in your past - There's a reason they didn't make it to your future." What an epiphany.
On another note, events in my life, ones that while in the throws of pure emotion, good and bad, have taught me how to listen to myself. To my dismay, confusion has been my constant companion for longer than I have wanted. I could not decide. Or if I had I would question my judgment. But for the first time I felt something - I felt something so strong and clear I embraced it without question. Of course, the confusion had me in it's clutches, but it came after the fact. I could not deny the feeling I had and could not forget it. I do not want to ever forget the clarity I felt. When I think about that moment, I know how to hear myself, to listen to the small whisperings guiding me through life. This event in my life has and will serve as a lesson on how to escape the confusion. As cliche as it may sound, this is my silver lining, this is a true blessing despite it all.
As everyone knows, my life is a roller coaster, which I have always seen myself as involuntarily riding. This ride isn't involuntary anymore. I am not saying that life is perfect and everything is hunky-dorey, because we all know those things are not actually possible. I will not even say that life is good at the moment because I still hurt. I still feel. I still struggle, even with this. So instead of being forced in the roller coaster by metal bars and safety belts, I hold myself in, clinging for life, because things will get better. It is all up to me. All I have to do is listen. When I do this my life is directed as such that will, eventually, lead me to the place that will bring me the most possible happiness. (Yeah, yeah I'm sounding sappy now. Sorry.) All I can do is try and wait - two things that I absolutely hate doing and, in this, I know I am not alone. But the world has misbehaved enough times to make it clear to me that this is something I need to do. Unfortunately, it comes through a time like this. Complain as I might, I cannot and will not turn back. The past is the past for a reason and knowing the things I do now, I will not look back. I will not dwell, contemplate, or long for things I have lost or left behind. "Forget about the things in your past - There's a reason they didn't make it to your future." What an epiphany.
1 comment:
Yeah! Good tips! But I personally thinking complaining is good every once in awhile...you have to have choice complaining moments in life! So make em count! :D
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