Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
- Daughtry
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
- Daughtry
The world works in mysterious ways... and I don't like it! I had previously voiced the longing and the pain I still felt and that I was glad to have it. Rewind and erase! I am not thankful for that ache because it was not a positive reminder for me. It was a reminder of what I was still holding on to. What I was holding on to never actually existed. What never actually existed? Everything I fell for. What was everything I fell for? A lie. What was all a lie? Something presented with optimum timing by a grand master. Get it?
Life lessons are hard. You get the test first, which ultimately you fail, and then the lesson. Only the wise will be able to pass the test a second time around while others continually fail through their second, third, fourth, and subsequent tests. I was naive, trusting, and inexperienced; the perfect target, for both a life lesson and that grand master. Getting out of the net I was in... I'm not quite sure how it happened, actually. I am grateful it did, I am just uncertain of how I stumbled upon the prompting to do so. I've gone over all of this before, so why does the world not make sense AGAIN?
I was forced to face the truth. I had to take off my blinders and look at the whole picture. It was very painful but, in doing so, I feel as if the net had actually, physically, been removed. I was, no am, appalled. Only slightly appalled at myself at falling for such a ruse but I was more shocked that someone would do that. The hurt was magnified by the strong feelings I had developed. Soon after this realization, the agony gave way to anger, which, fortunately, didn't last long. As of now, I feel nothing, in a good way; neither pain nor anger, sorrow or longing. Actually, I feel relieved that this happened! Where is the irony then, you ask?
Beware of some exaggeration in my timeline, but since I realized about this person, the world has seen fit, around every corner, to throw reminders into my path. These reminders are extreme and leave no doubt as to who they are of - a car, a song, a death bike. Why in the world?? Ineffective as these signs are, I cannot help but wonder about them. *laughs* How come the moment I stop caring, all these things happen that seem as if they trying to get me to care again? It's just too ironic for me, don't ya think? :D
Life lessons are hard. You get the test first, which ultimately you fail, and then the lesson. Only the wise will be able to pass the test a second time around while others continually fail through their second, third, fourth, and subsequent tests. I was naive, trusting, and inexperienced; the perfect target, for both a life lesson and that grand master. Getting out of the net I was in... I'm not quite sure how it happened, actually. I am grateful it did, I am just uncertain of how I stumbled upon the prompting to do so. I've gone over all of this before, so why does the world not make sense AGAIN?
I was forced to face the truth. I had to take off my blinders and look at the whole picture. It was very painful but, in doing so, I feel as if the net had actually, physically, been removed. I was, no am, appalled. Only slightly appalled at myself at falling for such a ruse but I was more shocked that someone would do that. The hurt was magnified by the strong feelings I had developed. Soon after this realization, the agony gave way to anger, which, fortunately, didn't last long. As of now, I feel nothing, in a good way; neither pain nor anger, sorrow or longing. Actually, I feel relieved that this happened! Where is the irony then, you ask?
Beware of some exaggeration in my timeline, but since I realized about this person, the world has seen fit, around every corner, to throw reminders into my path. These reminders are extreme and leave no doubt as to who they are of - a car, a song, a death bike. Why in the world?? Ineffective as these signs are, I cannot help but wonder about them. *laughs* How come the moment I stop caring, all these things happen that seem as if they trying to get me to care again? It's just too ironic for me, don't ya think? :D
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