So... How's the Water...?

Let's see, what can I say? I think I am afraid again. But this time it's different. I am not sure how to describe it though. Maybe it's just extreme nervousness. Have you ever wanted to jump into a pool but you were not sure what the water was? This is sorta like that. There is part of me that wants to dive in, head first, however reckless it may be. The other part of me though, is more reserved, and knows that this isn't something I can get into without keeping my wits about me. If you jump into the pool expecting it to be heated, the cold water gives you a painful shock. If you're expecting freezing cold water, on top of being crazy to want to jump in, you will be shocked by how seemingly warm the water is. I guess the smart thing to do is dip just a toe in first to gauge the temperature of the pool. Slowly after that, you begin to ease yourself in, bit by bit. Either way, you're going to get wet, so you better want what's coming. The question is do I follow my instincts and open up, like I seldom do, or do I keep myself the way I am? Does that even make sense? I'm assuming this is one of those things in life that requires patience seeing how much it is bothering me. I know that as long as I do what I need to do, I will end up exactly where I am supposed to be, and I will be happy. Now if only I could calm myself down!

P.S. - I'm wearing the smile you gave me.