What in the world am I going to do? All my life I have been so proud of the relationship I have with my family. I have felt so lucky to have such a strong connection with them that seems rare among my peers. The situation I am currently in may most likely jeopardize what I have with them, though. I promise I'm not a complete idiot and that everything on my end, as well as on that of my family I believe, is totally justified.
There are people in my life, friends that I have, that on several occasions have voiced their concern that the relationship I have with my family is... odd, I guess; that I need to 'grow up' and make decisions for myself. Admittedly I detest making decisions, mostly because if the consequences end up negative, I can take no part in the blame. I guess you could say that I have a problem with responsibility, but not in every sense... if that even makes sense. :P
"Sometimes God calms the storm and sometimes the sailor. But other times, He just lets him swim." In church I have learned that there are times we pray for an answer and are given neither conformation or disapproval. I understand now that it's these times where, for some reason, be it faith the Lord has in us or a needed learning experience, that we much choose the path to follow on our own. And I think that I am actually facing one of those decisions in my life now. I am just so worried that I am going to mess something up terribly! I guess all one can do is try, right? I'm gonna need a whole lotta luck since I'm not privy to the guidance I so desire... so start wishing!
There are people in my life, friends that I have, that on several occasions have voiced their concern that the relationship I have with my family is... odd, I guess; that I need to 'grow up' and make decisions for myself. Admittedly I detest making decisions, mostly because if the consequences end up negative, I can take no part in the blame. I guess you could say that I have a problem with responsibility, but not in every sense... if that even makes sense. :P
"Sometimes God calms the storm and sometimes the sailor. But other times, He just lets him swim." In church I have learned that there are times we pray for an answer and are given neither conformation or disapproval. I understand now that it's these times where, for some reason, be it faith the Lord has in us or a needed learning experience, that we much choose the path to follow on our own. And I think that I am actually facing one of those decisions in my life now. I am just so worried that I am going to mess something up terribly! I guess all one can do is try, right? I'm gonna need a whole lotta luck since I'm not privy to the guidance I so desire... so start wishing!
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